WHAT IF?

I hear and read it all the time; make yourself better, get a better job, make more money, wear nicer clothes, finetune your beauty regimen, fit in and be normal. Be Normal. But why?  And, what if?  You already are who you want to be?

I believe we should always work to help along our own soul/spirit.  For example, I am currently searching for CALM.  Yep, I seem to be anything but, and although she seems to elude me?  I keep trying to find that gal, at some point in my life I will, it's just not NOW.  I agree that I have a lot to work on, but NOT who I should become to keep up with the Joneses.

I AM ME.  StephieJean, Keenansdottir.  Imperfect and totally unconventional and definatley NOT normal.  I have a wild spirit, I do crazy things because I tend to jump without thinking.  I love loud music, and driving too fast.  I am loud and most days quite talkative, often conversing with strangers, the proverbial social butterfly.  But?  On the flipside I can be quiet and thougtful, and yes...Moody. One of my favorite things to do is to  sit on a dock on a lake or a cliff on my favorite island and let those waves sooth my soul.   I live in jeans, t-shirts, hoodies and my favorite flip flops and I honestly can't phathom wearing high heels, pearls and lace.  Joan Jett says it best, "a girl can do what she wants to do and that's what I'm gonna do" and that's what I have done all my life.  

I remember when I wanted to enroll in college, my Mamma  said "why do you want to go to college?  Why don't you get a job like NORMAL gals?"  Yep, she liked the idea of normal and average, although I know she loved that I was anything but normal and average.  My Dad, well, he had a wild spirit too, I think that's what she loved most about him.  

So I have to say, what if?  Instead of trying to find out who you should become you find out who you are instead?  Peel away those layers that have been put on you to find the true you.  That makes more sense to me, and then?  Take care of YOU.  

Stephie Jean!